Chrissykae

Hello everyone! Chrissy here to say that I now have my own Discord server! You can join by clicking the link here: https://discord.gg/3p8tDjRtDs Thank you!

Back in 2015, I used to be known as GoldenKisekae. And I was a very shitty person. I had no control of my impulses, I made many people uncomfortable and I couldn't keep a cap on my fetishes. The worst part about this was that even as a minor, I still explored and glorified sexual content and I pushed that onto other people. It got so bad that I left dA and never went back until years later. Of course, this was no fault of the people that I hurt. Even now, I have problems keeping certain things from that time under control. It was not a time that I'm proud to re-visit and the more I look back on it, the more or how I think of how I used to be and usually still am with some people and I feel ashamed more and more about it. Now in 2021, I'm working, or trying to at least, make amends. I can't do that to the people I hurt directly, but I felt as if the least I could do is share this so that people can know what I did and make their assumptions about the current me based off that. Even now, I realize that a lot of my impulses are not yet under control and it makes me even more of an unhealthy person. But, this is no one's fault. No one should have to feel responsible for me and for what I did. No one enabled me, no one coaxed me into doing those things. It was all of my own free will and I feel ashamed. I don't feel any other reason to share this other than to let people know what I did and to let people who are just getting their start on dA know that this is not the way to make yourself known in a positive light. Do not do what I did. You will not last and more often than not, those things that you did will eat away at your mental health. I'm not gonna say that it took anything from me to type this. It didn't and saying that wouldn't make this sound any better. Take this journal however you will. If you see me as one thing or another then that's fine. Take that thought and roll with it. I just needed to get this off my chest. If you have any info to add here, then go ahead. I feel people need to know about what I did before I or anyone else can move on. Thank you for reading and I hope to see you again soon.